So this weekend was NOT an easy one.
I fell into my usual self pity, beat myself up negative attitude routine this
weekend. It SUCKED! I’m feeling better today but getting those negative cobwebs
out of your head can be difficult. We are all our worst enemy but boy am I hard on myself...I can say some pretty mean and ugly comments to myself in the mirror and that my friends IS NOT A GOOD IDEA!!! GO AWAY NEGATIVE NANCY...you're a bitch and no one likes you!
Okay....so...I’m going to try and stay more positive and do things the
right way. I have vowed to myself that I will no longer eat out anywhere until
I trust myself to eat out and chose healthier choices. This is going to be very hard
because my bf and I, when he comes to visit, go out to eat all the time.
Although lately he’s been cooking for me because he’s a wonderful cook but there's a problem...…MY PORTION CONTROL!!! I feel like spitting when I say that!
So my vow is I will not be eating out unless there’s no way
around it and if I have to then it will be a salad with dressing on the side. I
will eat my Smart Ones and like it damnit! They get boring but if I want
results I have to work on it, it won’t happen on its own.
So here’s to a second week of going to the gym in the
morning and doing my 35-45 min elliptical work out and eating healthy. I will
say I’ve found some great 12 min work out videos on Pinterest for abs and arms
which I’m excited to do in the evening.
I want to do progression photos but I will not be able to
post them on here because well let’s face it…that’s just too damn hard for me
to do right now, especially with how disgusted I am with my body. I do have the
pictures but I will post as I progress.
So here’s to smaller portions, working out and getting my
head out of my ass! I’ve GOT to stop being so hard on myself, it only adds to
difficulty of losing weight. I WILL DO THIS! MUST.STAY.MOTIVATED!!!!!!!
Have a great week everyone!
